that night i fell asleep petting a black cat
when i woke up she wasn’t there anymore
when i woke up nothing was there anymore
when i woke up i was facedown on a curtain
when i woke up i didn’t know where i was
when i woke up in that desert dream
and all of my water had been taken from me
and all of my friends had been taken from me
and all of my drugs had been taken from me
and all of my love had been taken from me
nothing changed because nothing mattered anyway
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Brittany, I've been following your blog for a long time and my heart actually sinks when I see a new post from you in my reader. You used to write beautiful, touching poetry that was intelligent and insightful. Ever since you started mentioning that particular group of writers you like and indeed, met them in person your writing has changed. Now it's like a study of boredom and nihilism with all the comprehension of a teenage boy trying to be 'deep' and 'dark' to impress a girl he thinks is interested in tortured souls. I might be wrong in all this, but if what you're writing is true then it seems like you're letting your life fall apart too, and you always struck me, as much as one can through their writing, as a really nice girl. In which case, cheer the fuck up, seriously. Take whatever is wrong and change it or cut it the fuck out of your life, but believe me there are too many Sylvia Plaths out there, and in the end they all die young.
ReplyDeleteBrittany, keep on keepin on. Anonymous, grow a set and show yourself if you're going to make public such intimate criticism.
ReplyDeletePRAY FOR ME ANON, PRAY FOR ME
ReplyDeletewhatever b, u is legit. raw.
ReplyDeletei like youre writing. i dont think its 'nihilism' if it makes other people happy. which it does. dont stop. ill buy one of your packages when i can afford to. im also considering teaching english abroad but im afaid about their drug polices. regardless, ill come back here for more poems.
ReplyDeleteps sorry my new blog doesnt have many poems to look at. i erased my old one because it made me sick.